...with the sound of huffing and puffing.
This past Saturday, I enjoyed a lovely day in Georgetown. I attended a great free seminar at Lululemon about trigger points (very, very informative) and got a chance to chat about running and my plan for the marathon. I am extremely grateful to have someone so enthusiastic and understanding coach me the whole way to the finish line. There is definitely something to be said for accountability.
But as great as accountability can be, sometimes it leaves me feeling guilty or scared :) Monday marked the beginning of my long haul to October 30, my pre-training to the real training. Let me just begin by saying that I am extremely stubborn and hardheaded when it comes to running. I also expect to be super woman and be capable of running miles and miles even though I've been out of commission for over a month.
Monday's schedule read: 2.5 miles
Monday reality: 2 miles
Tuesday's schedule read: 3 miles
Tuesday's reality: 1.5 miles (yeah, I pretty much whimped out)
I was nervous about emailing the coach to tell him I had fallen short, but the amazing thing about naturally encouraging people is that they won't berate you for not doing something you are not capable of at the moment. Instead, the email I got in response was telling me to relax, we have time, let's start smaller and we will get there eventually...exactly what I needed to hear.
Sometimes I forget how lucky I am to have wonderful people around me. I know that no matter what, I can count on my friend Erin to smack me in between the eyes, nicely, and make me realize I shouldn't be too disappointed. No one can go from zero to 26.2 overnight...
... and I have time.
When I feel like I can't get out for a run, I recognize that "I'm hungry, I'm tired, I'm..." are excuses, not reasons. And I refuse to make excuses to get out of doing the work...that's the whole point anyway. Challenge yourself and you will reap the rewards.
"Maybe the most important preparation takes place when no one is looking, when no one is there to say 'better hurry up' or 'good job.' It's simply us and the task at hand. We can choose to push it or blow it off, and no one but us will ever know the difference.
But there is a difference, and it's a big one.
This is what I want to honor in myself. This is what I want to teach my children, even if I am stupid and ancient right now (ha). I want to prepare for the quiz. I want to be the same person, willing to exert the same effort, whether anyone is looking or not. I want to be present in every lap of my life, without belittling myself for time lost on a previous lap, or undermining myself by thinking about all the laps ahead. I want to run this lap, just this one, right here, right now. If I can do that, maybe, just maybe, I can begin to understand what it means to get out of my own way." Kristen Armstrong